I woke up in this morning feeling kinda depressed.

It was like all my strenght has gone. I couldn't move.

I tried to draw, play music, go to the mall with my sister (who is my best friend). To play games. Nothing made me feel better.  

I just felt like crying, all the day, and I couldn't find any obvious reason... I spent my day thinking about the possible causes.
And I found some. Unfortunatelly I can't change a few... it's what I call destiny - I can't make things different... One is just impossible to change.

The tears didn't come, but I'm feeling like sh**.

It's like it makes no difference to live or to die now. Sometimes I feel I don't really care.

I'm not complaining about life. I have a confortable house, a good job, good sisters and a kind brother. I have enough money to buy some stuff I like - but don't think I'm rich - actually I can say I'm almost poor XD

Maybe I'm just effing tired. All I need is to take  a rest. Sleep a little. No cellphone, no computer, no television. Just a relaxing music, a confortable bed or chair. Hmmm... maybe no music - only the silence.

Sorry for this words. I just needed to write this down... share (or at least feel I'm sharing...)

I can't talk to anyone about the things that make me feel sad, and it's hard to carry this burden alone. But it's my way of life. I feel like I'm not able to share this kind of stuff with people - this makes me feel weak...
It's like being lost into a maze, screaming, without being heard.


Have you ever felt like this?